It is always HARD to leave home & go to work, esp since Doris is now retired & thus always here... She always gets so sad when I have to go. Then when I'm gone, I feel so guilty that she's lonely & I can't wait to get back to her. I always call to let her know I'm thinking of her. I really DO WISH I could retire, too. I crave it. But I'm only 59 & 3 yrs away from Early retirement, & I can't afford to stop now.
On the other hand, I do often like the job, I often love the Flight Attendants I work with & if I don't, it's usually one trip I'm stuck with them - not like I'm stuck everyday in an office with the same old bitches & dickwads. If I DO get stuck with a difficult worker for more than one trip, it would be for a month at the most, as we bid for different schedules each month.
There are a lot of nice passengers in the world. There are also some flaming idiots. But I guess the same could be said about flight crews sometimes. Usually FA's are Very Nice, helpful to each other & funny too! And we can talk about all our problems, we all have a sympathetic ear & often times have similar issues because of the job. We're good for spilling our guts during a break & equally excellent at maintaining composure & carrying on professionally.
I LOVE hotel rooms. I love to have my own space, my own bed - I sleep better away by myself, probably because I'm so pooped from work. I always wish Doris was there with me, but am just as glad she's not because SHE would want to go out & about & I would be too damn tired from flying. I also appreciate being able to fart stink bombs all alone without offending her or anyone else for that matter. (grin*)
It's great to be able to make someone happy. If I feel that Doris is not happy with me, we have fought & the same old shit is pissing us off, it is a relief to know I'm not a total failure when I go to work & can easily serve a drink, some snacks, smile & chat to make others content for a few hours. It certainly isn't all that hard. And by the time I get back home in 2 or 3 days, Doris & I have a better appreciation for each other from missing & wanting to be side by side.
Which brings me back to retirement. Once D retired, it was VERY difficult to have her around here 24/7. How bad would it be if I NEVER had a job to run off to that I could get away from the everyday spats & annoyances, not to mention the infuriating fights now & then??? I envision retirement to be Heaven, but would it be Hell as well?
Seeing that I can not afford to retire at the moment, I guess that question is moot. But it does go thru my mind whenever we have disagreement's we don't seem to be able to discuss. When I mentioned how bored I was at that last church function, her remark was that I always find something to complain about. And I am never satisfied. Well maybe there is SOME truth to that, but the same could be said for her as well.
One thing is for sure. When I fly away I often end up thinking the arguments are just a 'piss in the bucket' & that the important thing is our relationship, our home & our Love. Then I just can't wait to get back.
Love is everything, certainly the most important thing! As I look at Doris lying here by my side, sleeping peacefully with her cute little men's white undershirt on, & her newspapers strewn about, my heart jumps for joy! She is beautiful, she is mine & I am hers. I am really lucky & blessed! Life is good.