Saturday, April 30, 2011

The Last day of April

It's (a bit) warmer,
grass is green,
flowers are poppin',
trees are getting their leaves.
Alleluia & thankya Jesus!!!

It is looking like spring,
' it still rains constantly
and gets cold enough for sweatshirts & jackets.

I really don't think there will BE
a spring this year,
one day we'll just wake up
& it will be blisteringly HOT.

This was the WORST winter ever.
It sucked.

God how I wish I lived in LA again.
But then, that was back in '68
when it was truly beautiful
& seemingly glamorous!

I was SO lucky to experience
a slice of life there then!
Still a virgin, tucked into a cocoon
of my parental family gorgeous home
up in the hills of Santa Ana/Tustin
in Orange County!

Beautiful eucalyptus & palm trees,
a small, graceful swimming pool in the back yard
& a fabulous view of El Toro AFB, with
trees & a distant lake
with sparkling lights
miles off the back yard's cliff's vista!
Ahhh those were the days,
if only I had know it.

Joni Mitchell was right,
"You just NEVER know what you got till it's gone."
No matter where I lived it's been like that,
and satisfaction eluded me...
all I ever wanted to do was
LEAVE & go to the next "mecca."

Except maybe for NYC!!!!
Turned native
the first minute
I stepped out on the streets
that was where I belonged!!
Yes, Bright Lights Big City,
being anonymous
in the thundering crowds,
Totally seductive!!!

GOD it was exciting,
a smorgasbord of thrills & experiences,
new friends,
new flying job,
new adult life,
sex drugs & discos!

And there I stayed for 27 years
where I fell in & out of love,
got my heart broken 4 or more times,
lost count...
became a pot & cocaine addict,
came out,
got sober &
grew up.

The energy there was ELECTRIC
& I LOVED it.

But when my tiny studio apt rent
went up to $1000/mo
I finally relented,
went house shopping with my dear Lover
& moved to NJ 17 years ago.

So here I sit,
now retired from a hard working job,
and joyful I'm still alive to tell the tale!

Life is really wonderful
so shouldn't I be satisfied
and just "bloom where I am planted?"

It's just those Damn WINTERS.
What can I tell ya?

Monday, April 18, 2011

I Am a Gut Butt

Worked out hard at the gym today.
Elliptical 30 min
Machines 20 min
100 sit ups
21 laps in the pool.

Damn all those pancakes I gobbled down for TWO effin' days.
I have gain 2 more lbs. So I gotta try to WORK it off before weigh-in @ ww on wed.
I love pancakes & maple syrup.
I am such a FUCKING food addict.

I gotta get recommitted & strict.
Damn Damn Damn.

Saturday, April 09, 2011

I'm a FOOL for Retirement!!!

Apr 1st was my one year retirement anniversary!
April Fools day - I was a fool for not leaving @ 60
& trying to wait for social security @ 65
Hence having to basically "quit"
Because I had become injured,
Couldn't walk with heel spurs
& major hip pain.

Yep Yep got old before my time...
creak creak.

I was deliriously ecstatic last year
When MY time finally came

The madness


The insanely physical (over)work


Terrorism alerts

Cleaning vomit
& other bodily fluids

Defibulators & oxygen


The sleepless nights -
Worrying about next day sign-ins

Less pay for harder days

Divas & Dumbasses

Wake-up calls 3hrs earlier just to have
Time to load on the (kabuki)make-up & War paint
To try to hide
My Drooping

Charging 900 mph up & down the aisles
Day in & day out

Kissing Ass(es)

Pleasing Psgrs

And pilots

And other FA's

And working with other not as professional FA's
(ie lazy buttholes who didn't want to work)

Having to leave home

Missing Doris

and Most of all
Not being appreciated
While fearing getting fired.

42 years of all that-
Truly amazing.
No wonder I was such a bitch!

And now that I've chilled.......
Life is Sweet!
And so is SLEEP!!!

Peace be mine.

Thy name is delirium.
...So wonderful.
SO blessed.