Tuesday, December 30, 2008

A Great Recipe for the New Year

A GREAT RECIPE for the New Year...

1. Take a 10-30 minute walk every day. And while you walk, smile. It
Is the ultimate anti-depressant.

2. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day. Talk to God about
What is going on in your life.

3. When you wake up in the morning complete the following statement, 'My
Purpose is to__________ today. I am thankful for______________'

4. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that
Is manufactured in plants.

5. Drink green tea and plenty of water. Eat blueberries, broccoli,
Almonds & walnuts.

6. Try to make at least three people smile each day.

7. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip, energy vampires, issues
Of the past, negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead
Invest your energy in the positive present moment.

8. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a
College kid with a maxed out charge card.

9. Life isn't fair, but it's still good..

10. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

11. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

12. You are not so important that you have to win every argument.
Agree to disagree.

13. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.

14. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their
Journey is all about.

15. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.

16. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: 'In five years,
Will this matter?'

17. Forgive everyone for everything.

18. What other people think of you is none of your business.

19. GOD heals everything - but you have to ask Him.

20. However good or bad a situation is , it will change.

21. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends,
Will. Stay in touch!!!

22. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

23. Each night before you go to bed complete the following statements: I
Am thankful for__________. Today I accomplished_________.

24. Remember that you are too blessed to be stressed.

25. When you are feeling down, start listing your many blessings.
You'll be smiling before you know it.

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Feeling much better

Yea! I'm better now! Guess it was a 24hr flu/virus. Phew! glad that's over with. When I was feeling so ill I put in for pvd's for my trip on the 30/31st thinking I would be too sick to work. Well they came thru so I will not have to be working that flight coming back on New Year's eve! Hooray!

I weighed in down 1.4 lbs at WW today. So that is a good result in being to sick to eat for 2 days. But Now I am again ravenous. Dang. Eating is so much fun. Why can't it just be like housework? I'd never be fat.

I accomplished a lot today, - besides going to WW, I picked up milk & eggs at Trader Joes, ordered the alloted uniform replacement items from my company, went to the dentist, & then to Lenscrafters, & took out the trash. (Trying to get all the deadlines met with insurance, etc by the end of the year!)

And NOW I think I'll SLEEP!

Friday, December 26, 2008


OMG! I ATE so much food at Christmas dinner last night.
I went back for seconds.
Good thing I didn't go back for thirds.
Today I'm sick.
Guess it serves me right. - I had NO control.
I feel like throwing up,
& woke up with the runs.
What is this a flu or virus???
I felt fine last night, I just thought the home we were in was freezing & couldn't take off my coat for a while. But I didn't feel sick at all.
What a bummer.
I am laying in bed for now.
I wonder how long this sick feeling is gona last.

Monday, December 22, 2008

better now

Okay, I'm better now. Boy was I mad. I've moved on to worrying about Doris' grandson Davion who is stuck in Ohio without any money,trying to get the car he just bought fixed, insurance, license plates & gas to drive to Pa where he just graduated from school to pick up his clothes then drive to NJ. So he called Doris for help because nobody else will give him any money. We have a $400 gas/electric bill from last month we have to pay. I barely scraped together money for the mortgage & am on my own until the next paycheck on the 30th. I worry along with Doris that cops & highway patrol could fuck with young Davion on his way home... For those that don't know they really mess with black kids on the highways. And everywhere else for that matter.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Real Loving. Not.

Good grief, it's been awhile since my last entry.

I've just been working. hard. alot.
Basically I've been good.
But now I'm broke because I spent too much this month, so that's depressing. Then, I came merrily home from my flight last night just to find out Doris took Roxie's crate out of the pet's room & threw it out back.

I was crushed. Heartbroken. PISSED. IRATE. PHSYCOTIC. I had told her I'd do it when I felt ready to let it go, I had taken comfort in it & her little toys & bowl inside. I know it's nutty. But I'd been doing so well since that fateful day on nov 10, I didn't want to rock the boat.

Now I've been a raging lunitic all night & day, & then had a bit of a meltdown in the bank today when I found there was no money in one of my saving's account. (I had $89 in one & found out it was below some kind of limit, thus the bank had taken out $4 ea month for SO long there was only $17 left in it.) Plus I was scraping the bottom to get the mortgage paid this month. So I told the teller 'it wouldn't be so bad if my girlfriend wasn't such a shit.' Then the tears started to fall, I told her 'my dog died & she threw out her cage' then I started to ball.

She handed me THREE kleenex's which made me laugh "do you keep these back there for people who find out they have no money left?' We laughed. Then I had to stand in another line to close that damn savings account where I just cried more & more into the kleenex. Another teller across the floor said, 'Kathy are you okay?' I nodded yes & kept crying. Man, I just lost it. Thank God I wasn't on the plane. Damn.

So Doris & I aren't getting along last night & today. We're yelling, screaming at each other. We normally don't do well in Dec because of her son & other relatives coming here. But that hasn't even happened yet. So wish me luck. If we come apart in the next two or so weeks I won't be surprised. Right now if she walked out the door, I'd be fine. Buhbye!


I am pissed & hurt. She thinks she's done nothing wrong. Technically I suppose she hasn't, but how can she not know this would set me off? She just didn't care. Probably wanted it out to make room for her damn visiting deadbeat son & the others. They can all go to hell. Together.