Okay, here's a thought. Many times different people would sit down by me to talk... They have been reading my thoughts & feelings for 5 years now on our RHS_60sgrads list. A lot have encouraged me to write because they liked the way I put words together. But hardly any of these folks have written much of their own feelings & thoughts so I dont really know them anymore.
I still like them, love some of them, but here they all came to say hi, sitting down expecting brilliant discourse. It was nice, really great they wanted a piece of me, but I found myself (much to my shock & dismay) blank, empty... I didnt really know what to say (to many of these now strangers) that I hadn't written to them already.
Of course with the others that I have been personally emailing with back & forth, I had plenty to talk about. It was just wierd to find myself sitting around people I really liked with nothing to say. Totally odd. And kinda embarrassing because they all expected me to be articulatingly brilliant & also to be Really Funny!
Well I was just nothing. Might as well have been invisable, because my regular 'Felicia Flight Attendant' persona was gone, taking a break somewhere in the parking lot outside, I guess. I dont know... It sort of spooked me, this just never happens & I'm not sure I understand why it did. Perhaps I was just overwhelmed by SO MUCH that was going on everywhere around us at all times!
At any rate, this is definately NOT one of the memories I recorded in my written journal they printed on the main website. If I did, they could have written under it, "The brightly amusing Kathy Brodrick was a mute dork!"
Oh, damn. They found me out! >.grin.<