There is just always too much to do. The frickin' outdoor lights, the tree, get the pictures developed, pick them out, develop them put them in windows & make the photo albums, get picture xmas cards made, write the xmas letter, send it all out, clean the fucking house, get the dog groomed. Maybe I JUST WON'T DO ANYTHING.
I'm depressed I have to work so much, the paychecks have been cut in half as well as the vacations, I get only 2 measly weeks the end of dec instead of the whole month. And I assure you, it will be NO vacation with so much to do, not to mention you know who coming to stay with us for the "holiday" to see his kids & mother, & act like he's NOT a deadbeat dad. He truly makes my stomach turn, esp to watch Doris adore his looser ass so much.
Last night we had another fight, I seem to be too much of a mean, hateful bitch to Doris & it just "makes her want to go somewhere." Again with the threat to leave me. I just broke down & cried because of all of the above, (didn't mention the looser son) & that it has become impossible to make her happy since she's retired. I am becoming more & more depressed & it scares me. But not as much as Doris' leaving... However que sera sera. if that's what she wants to do, she probably COULD find someone easier to get along with. I can be such a bitch. glad I'm flying out today, even tho' I'm exhausted & don't want to go anywhere.