Sunday, July 09, 2006

An Inventorial View

3 days ago I was writing for 1 1/2 hours on my laptop & it suddenly turned itself off, I lost everything. I was so pissed I didn't try again till now.  Keep in mind, I just paid $125 to have this bitch fixed.  So I guess I shall have to go back to writing a paragraph then saving it, go back in again & write the next & save, on & on till I'm finished.  Do any of you EVER go thru this frickin' bs with your laptops?

So I gained back 1/2 lbs with all the BBQ I ate over the 4th of July.  I know it is not much, but still disheartening since at this point it really takes SO long to loose an oz.  It is definitely hard for me to stop eating something delicious once I start.  Portion control is hell.

Well, I need to try to stay positive with my 45 lb weight loss.  uhm, make that 44 1/2 lb loss.  damn. 

Okay, first I am wearing SIZE 10 from size 4xxx & size 28!  Folks are definitely noticing.

Next best - my face is smaller!  Went from a fat, jowly cheek/neck area to having a pin head!  I have cheekbones.

I have a waistline!  I couldn't believe how much better I look in a swimsuit this year.  Still got a gutt, but I'm thinking 5 more lbs will make it passable...  hmm maybe.  I might even shave my legs for the 1st time in 3 decades. ....Naaaaa.....  probably not.  I'm a furry dyke.  And Doris likes it.  Thank God.

Doris is always smiling at me now & complimenting me on how "you really lost that weight!!"  She still reaches out to grab my butt, but then she always did that!  My ass is now flat, by the way - which is NOT a good thing since I love a great derriere, it was always that way growing up tho'.  At least I'm no longer shocked & jumping when I pass by a mirror, I used to think someone was following me.  It was my mammoth ASS.

And this bulletin just in:....  Not the coolest thing to write in a blog but I used to have  pendulous, thick, hanging globules of heavy fat for breasts. They were beyond huge; I wore a 42DDD.  So in the shower on my last layover as I was soaping the girls down, shampoo in my eyes - thus eyes closed, I suddenly realized I had my hands around small, rather petite breasts!  I now have regular, normal sized, round feeling, smallish everyday boobies!  It was shocking & joyous.  Now maybe people will look more in my eyes when they meet or talk to me.

It's all such a miracle!  I feel happy. So I gained back a half pound.  BFD.

 

6 comments:

dghtronly said...

Sorry, no help with the laptop. I guess I said that before. Anyway, that just sucks about your laptop--I hope you can get that solved without too much more money--I had some recent encounters with Geeks on Call and while the service was fine, they have this rebate deal that sent me around the bend..

I've got some pop-up, probably corrupted registry issues to handle--I love/hate computers.

So fab about the inital weight loss and the cute perky ones. Don't sweat the small stuff--you got that all covered--you're a demon weight loss queen, now, right?

Sure you are. Congrats.

Deborah

kmb524 said...

Hi Deborah...well they aren't perky, didn't say perky, just smaller.  They are definately still  h a n g i n'  !  Just not so low!

nursepam2001 said...

Yes, I have worked long and hard on things that will be forever lost in cyberspace (because they sure aren't in my head any longer.  I'm at that age where committing anything to writing empties out my brain).

Don't beat yourself up for gaining 1/2 pound.  Tomorrow is another day.  You're doing great :o)

nursepam2001 said...

Yes, I have worked long and hard on things that will be forever lost in cyberspace (because they sure aren't in my head any longer.  I'm at that age where committing anything to writing empties out my brain).

Don't beat yourself up for gaining 1/2 pound.  Tomorrow is another day.  You're doing great :o)

nfluxus said...

No beating yourself up over 1/2 lb.! I demand it. 44 1/2 pounds is amazing! It seems like you lost the last 10 pretty quickly. I need to go back to WW. Since I've been away I haven't lost anything although I haven't gained either but it really helps to go to the meetings. ~Elizabeth

wordsrock said...

I am truly impressed with your weight loss.

Your bra size was 42DDD?!?  I went from a 36B to a 42DDD while I was pregnant.  I wanted to die.  Little did I know at that point when they finally returned to close to my pre-pregnant size they would lose all of their former perkiness.  It was a shocking realization for me.  I cried.  Really.  But I've accepted their new status.  Like I had a choice.

Never had such a problem with a laptop.  But yes, you should save every paragraph anyway.  That's an old habit of mine.  You never hear someone say they are sorry they saved frequently!