Well, I flew that trip the next day & was able to make it thru, with a great #1 & good psgrs! I did however drop my last trip of the month (on Memorial day) which was SO hard to loose all that overtime I would have accrued (104 hrs).
But I made the decision to rest as I think Ive learned the lesson: I am just too old to work this hard now. I just have to accept it. I have to figure something else out. I 've not been as sick as I was this month, what with "allergies"/a cold & food poisoning/a 24hr virus - what EVER all that was. I was too worn out.
The Flight Attendants on this trip Also gave me a little bday party complete with cake (didn't eat it) & candles & presents. They made me feel so appreciated. A sky marshall onboard took pictures with his blackberry & I emailed them to some sister bloggers. Unfortunately I don't know how to put them in my journal here. daaaa. I'm an idiot.
Well this is a boring entry, ho hum. I've had 5 days off & I have to fly out tomorrow (thurs.) Back to the ole grindstone, I feel okay. Don't know WHEN I'll ever not feel tired again.
And I won't even go into what a fucking bitch I am when it comes to holiday barbecues. Doris did everything, got everyone together here. She is amazing. I was miserable. Some of them came sick. It pissed me off. I think everyone is stupid & I just wanted it to be us, alone. I was SO glad when it was over & they all went home. I don't like people all in my home. How the HELL do mothers stand it??? They do this crap every day. blaa. I am NOT cut out for this, esp when I'm exhausted & recovering from feeling listless & ill.
But who am I kidding? I would not like this if I were 100% well & happy. Which would be easier if I wasn't worried about bills & making ends meet. Shish. My GOD, I am so boring. Let me just shut the F. up!