This is my last day as 58. Just flew in LATE last night & am simply laying around. Flight Attendants on my trip gave me a beautiful Bday card & we all had sugarless jello, they said they knew I wouldnt eat cake on my ww diet. It was all very thoughtful.
I remember celebrating birthdays with Daddy when I was young. Today is his birthday, they used to say they got me for his birthday since his is the 23rd & mine is the 24th. But Im thinking I was at least 3 months when they recieved me for adoption. That would be late Aug or early Sept.
Summer birthdays were always the best as a kid! Growing up in Texas, it was always warm... Wonderful weather for parties & fun! Here in the east, it's still very cool, cold at night. Alan's bday is in June, so he still gets to have warm weather for his bday. He is 2 yrs younger than me, & tho' I was miserable about adopting HIM on my 3rd bday, I love him so much now. The story about that is in my archives last year.
Driving home from the airport last night, I felt sad about not doing anything great with my life. I prayed to be shown the way to be the best me. I feel like I wasted so much time since I haven't accomplished big things. And I feel like a failure because I am so broke at a time I should be starting to relax & enjoy getting older. Instead I have to work extra hard to (not even) break even.
Most women my age are not so pulled & streched from each end. Perhaps because the majority have husbands with great incomes that enable them to have more time off. I'm sure I could have gone that route. But then I wouldn't have been able to be the real me.
Sometimes even now Im not clear who that is, but one thing for sure- I am definately happier with women than with men. yikes, blaa! It would not have been worth being the wealthiest woman ever, as an apendage of a husband, because I would have been seeing women on the down low anytime I could have. Much better to be an honest, hard working lesbian & happy in bed each night!