Wednesday, April 01, 2009

Frickin' Weight Gain

I'm down 1.2 lbs at ww this evening. Can't believe it, must be because I'm not well. (Still coughing after returning home yesterday, & slept all day today, gotta fly back out tomorrow, got cough syrup & mucinex.)

Saw Starr Jones on Oprah today speaking about her lap band/weight loss journey & she said she still dreams about double whoppers with cheese. I just started crying hearing that. Dumb I know, but it's just such a fucking struggle trying to manage maintence (as evident that I regained back weigh twice in 3 yrs.)

When I bend over I feel that beach ball in my stomach & my uniform pants are once again too tight in the waist. Shit. One of my group pointed out that I'm only 12 lbs over my goal & I could get it back down if I really focus.

Guess it could be worse. I gotta get more positive & stop feeling sorry for myself. I am afterall still somewhat healthy. It would be easier to STAY healthy with out extra flubber & poundage. I know my Knees & feet would appreciate it.

Appologies for the boring entry.

4 comments:

Tina-cious.com said...

I feel your pain. But I'm nowhere near my goal weight.

Gawd I hate this whole weightloss thing.

KMae said...

Tina- fuckin' HATE it.
Such a struggle.
I know I've done it before, but I feel so deprived of all that delish food. dammit.

IndigoSunMoon said...

Imaine needing to lose over 100 pounds?! I had gastric bypass surgery a few years ago, and I've lost 160+ pounds. But dont let people tell you its the easy way out because its far from it. I still have diarrhea almost every day, especially if I eat something fatty...but for me, it was worth it. I tried every diet known to man. This worked for me, and If they told me I needed to have it again tomorrow, I would be standing at the hospital doors.
Just keep up what your doing honey. I'm pullin for ya!
Connie

KMae said...

Connie- Wow awesome! That is a LOT of weight to loose! Congratulations.