Good grief, it's been 2 weeks since my last entry. I've flown 3 trips since my buddie's last retirement trip, which was bitter sweet. I think I'm REALLY ANGRY & I feel left behind somehow.
Of course, it's my own damn fault (well, & Doris' fault too) that my financial situation is basically fucked & I have to keep working. Mainly really Doris' fault. My credit card bills are not insurmountable, I can pay them (there are only 3) slowly. D's, well forget it. Don't really see a light at the end of that tunnel. We just don't answer the phone when creditors call.
Our 26 yr anniversary is coming up fast & I had wanted to get legally hitched on that date, but am too afraid I shall then be responsible for her bills if something should happen to her. For sure they could take the house as both our names are on the deed whether we get civilized or not. It's sad.
I have been eating again, shoving down feelings with food, but AT LEAST I have not gone back to chocolate, ice cream, cookies & sugar. Am doing carbs, bread & too big portions. I shall stop this too. Dammit. And I gotta start exercising again, but it's too swelteringly hot, plus I'm cranky & tired.
Okay now you see why I haven't written. bitch bitch bitch. sigh.
I flew back last night with huge, long gate holds & delays due to weather & got in around 0300a. I'll be better when I get more sleep. Also I'm going to WW tonight even tho' I KNOW I'll be over my weight limit & therefore have to pay for the meeting. Whatever. Life goes on.
Okay, WW went okay, great in fact.. I lost .8 of a lb. YEA! that's almost a lb. phew! Didn't have to pay after all! Well, I'm in a better mood, now!