Saturday, July 09, 2011

Summer Just Started & it's half over already...

Good Lord. It's half way thru summer, haven't even been in the above ground pool that often yet. It has rained a lot, altho' it has finally gotten steamy hot around town.

Problem is my Doris. Poor baby went in for a check up & ekg. came out with the whole complex panicing over ATRIAL FIBRILLATION showing up on her cardiac squiggles. They threw her in the URGENT CARE walk-in clinic there, took chest xrays, tons of blood, & hours later put her on Coumidin.

Henceforth we have been to the Dr's 3 times a week for the 4 weeks of June. She went to a cardiologist, had a stress test, an echo cardiogram (where I nearly cried just seeing her heart beating - the heart I love so much,) swallowed iodine & radioactivity for an endocrinologist to check out her thyroid, & has gone twice a week to the coumidin clinic trying to get that med regulated.

Sigh. I think everything will be okay. But it just is a reminder that we ain't gettin' any younger, D is 75. I can't stand the thought of her dying. Or me either for that matter. We just aren't ready to leave this life. I don't know WHAT I'd do without her, or how I'd even be able to go on. She would do much better going on without me than I would without her. It's just the way it is.

Her sister just passed away one night. That's how death comes, like a thief in the night.

Since I'd like to live a bit longer, it would behove me to get a grip on my ever-expanding girth. My GOD, I can NOT stop eating cake with icing & all the bbq from summer parties & butter popcorn at all the movies. I am back up to 194. Motherfucking fucker.

Just went to a Club EWR summer party & look mammoth in the photos. I miss all my Flight Attendants. They are so sweet & FUNNY & they actually miss me too. I was embarrassed at how fat I looked, I'm sure it will go all over the system - 'OMG - Kathy has gained SO much weight since she retired....' Funny thing is tho', they always give me so much respect & act so glad to see me. FA's are always So sweet! To me at least.
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1 comment:

the only daughter said...

Don't beat yourself up too much. You'll get your swerve back, I'm sure. :-)

My thoughts are with you and Doris. Ya'll take it easy.