I'm still struggling with my weight which is up again to 175. I really dont want to deprive myself of all the delecious SHIT I got back in the habit of eating since I dropped that 50lbs a year 1/2 ago. I still go to WW, even tho' I keep eating crap & keep gaining. BUT---
I started this great website for those of us in that wed's 530p WW group to write our thoughts & feelings on. It's a yahoogroup so it's free, & it's really COOL.
Unfortunately only 2 other women have joined it, so there are 3 of us chatting back & forth. But it's the first week, so I'll see next wed why no one else has responded. Maybe they're just having a hard time signing up for it. (Or maybe they're a bunch of big dumbasses not realizing what a great opportunity to help ea other this would be! ha!) OR maybe a computer geek MIGHT hav started a better site for us, which would be fine cause I really dont know what I'm doing. I'm just kinda proud of myself that I actually figured out how to do this, & quite frankly that it has turned out so COOL (imo!)
But the thing is that this is all so frivilous compared to some friend's plight in life at the moment.
One old friend is loosing his huge, gorgeous home in Connecticut & having to move into a small puny rental. He had to sell all his antiques, which were fabulous at an auction & got shafted there, not even making half of what he expected. His lover has turned into a real bitch behind it all (they've been together for 3 decades) & it's miserable for them both. (gay men.)
Then I just found out another male friend whom I love & work with at times has just been told he has HIV. The lover he got it from KNEW that he had it & never told him. Such a crime. I am SO sad for him even tho' there are many drugs now & much hope for long lives for PWA now.
I should not complain. Life is fine for me.
Sunday, April 27, 2008
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
On Vacation!
Vacations go too fast. One week is already gone, one more to go. Which is short, but better than no more time off.
So I immediately gassed up the RV & drove 4 hrs. to my brother's in Pa. I think it's been 10 years since I last visited because the cigarette smoking drove me nuts. Well, glad I got over that- I was just glad to see him!
I was also glad to see that his wife's MS hasn't progressed too badly, altho' she might disagree, she uses a walker for balance to get around the house.
They live very sparsely because they don't earn much money. They both make exquisite glass beads that are amazingly beautiful & they sell them on EBay. And Alan does carpentry & handyman jobs for people.
Annie's oldest son & his wife are moving in with them taking the upstairs floor & that should help with their mortgage. They seem to be okay with that, my Lord you all KNOW I'd be dying. I would HATE not being able to walk around nude or having to close the bathroom door just to pee. Anyway, they are cheerful, loving & open about it - which shows they are much kinder people than me!
I really enjoyed talking with Annie, we never had gotten on that well before as she was very young when they got married, & I still loved the 3rd (ex)wife. They have now lasted 12 years & she is in her mid forties & much more interesting (my brother is almost 59). She gave me the most exquisite bead she made that I had admired, it is about 2 inches long & has 2 purple iris against a pink & green swirley background. Beautiful! and generous. I've been wearing it around my neck ever since. If anybody is interested in some slammin' glass beads, you could probably look on EBay under ABartglass. I don't know how to put a link up here.
Incedentally, I froze my ass off sleeping in that RV under a full moon that crisp April night in Pa. Drove home later the next day! Alan had come home from his job to cook a hearty lunch before I left. He cooks all the meals for Annie & washes the dishes immediately afterward! The night I arrived he'd made some delicious spaghetti & meat sauce for me (a favorite from our childhood) which I gobbled up! Afterward he told me it was made with Deer meat. OhGOD! I ate a Bambi & felt guilty... (This from someone who was a vegetarian for Decades.) shish.
Alan & Annie don't have a TV & don't want one. (I would surely DIE.) They read to each other & have meaningful conversations, rent movie videos & are into their Baha'I' faith. It's a simple life out there in the Pa. farm & Amish country & they seem truly happy!
As for me, I was happy to get back to the comfort of my own home. Ain't no place like your own!
So I immediately gassed up the RV & drove 4 hrs. to my brother's in Pa. I think it's been 10 years since I last visited because the cigarette smoking drove me nuts. Well, glad I got over that- I was just glad to see him!
I was also glad to see that his wife's MS hasn't progressed too badly, altho' she might disagree, she uses a walker for balance to get around the house.
They live very sparsely because they don't earn much money. They both make exquisite glass beads that are amazingly beautiful & they sell them on EBay. And Alan does carpentry & handyman jobs for people.
Annie's oldest son & his wife are moving in with them taking the upstairs floor & that should help with their mortgage. They seem to be okay with that, my Lord you all KNOW I'd be dying. I would HATE not being able to walk around nude or having to close the bathroom door just to pee. Anyway, they are cheerful, loving & open about it - which shows they are much kinder people than me!
I really enjoyed talking with Annie, we never had gotten on that well before as she was very young when they got married, & I still loved the 3rd (ex)wife. They have now lasted 12 years & she is in her mid forties & much more interesting (my brother is almost 59). She gave me the most exquisite bead she made that I had admired, it is about 2 inches long & has 2 purple iris against a pink & green swirley background. Beautiful! and generous. I've been wearing it around my neck ever since. If anybody is interested in some slammin' glass beads, you could probably look on EBay under ABartglass. I don't know how to put a link up here.
Incedentally, I froze my ass off sleeping in that RV under a full moon that crisp April night in Pa. Drove home later the next day! Alan had come home from his job to cook a hearty lunch before I left. He cooks all the meals for Annie & washes the dishes immediately afterward! The night I arrived he'd made some delicious spaghetti & meat sauce for me (a favorite from our childhood) which I gobbled up! Afterward he told me it was made with Deer meat. OhGOD! I ate a Bambi & felt guilty... (This from someone who was a vegetarian for Decades.) shish.
Alan & Annie don't have a TV & don't want one. (I would surely DIE.) They read to each other & have meaningful conversations, rent movie videos & are into their Baha'I' faith. It's a simple life out there in the Pa. farm & Amish country & they seem truly happy!
As for me, I was happy to get back to the comfort of my own home. Ain't no place like your own!
Saturday, April 05, 2008
A Couples Meme by Sassy
A Couples Meme
by SASSYFEMME
26 Yrs, 27 in July!
2. Who pursued who?
I totally chased her gorgeous ass all over town, 'till she caught me.
3. Do you wear any type of wedding/commitment ring? If so, which hand?
We have matching gold bands with 5 diamonds on our left marriage finger... Altho I've recently had to remove mine since I regained weight...I had made it smaller when I'd lost 50lbs... & it's too damn tight.
4. What was the hardest thing about learning to live together?
In the beginning having sex with her children in the next room..Definately cramped my style. For her the fact that I am not a neat person & she is.
5. Who takes longer to get ready in the morning?
If I put on make-up, then I do.
If I don't put on makeup then she does (D. always puts on make-up.) We're both lipstick lesbians, but Doris is an exquisitely fancy butch!
6. Do you usually eat breakfast together?
At home I have 3 hardboiled egg whites, vitamins & a smoothie... D has one hardboiled egg, vitamins & a smoothie & we usually eat this together quickly before running out the door.
But often we go out for a nice brunch at Perkins or The Scotchwood Diner.
7. Do you ever share clothes?
Yes some stuff like Tee's or Sweatshirts, but mostly we have our own clothes- Doris is 6 ft tall so her stuff is a bit bigger plus she is VERY stylish, while I no longer care so much. I can rally if I have to, but I just want comfort. I'm happy to wear a uniform so I don't have to think about it.
8. Who does most of the cooking?
DORIS!!! always.
I can not cook.
9.Who usually takes out the trash?
I do if I'm in town.
10. If you have pets who usually does litter box or poop patrol?
I do if I'm in town. Doris would rather not have animals in the house even tho' they adore her. She will do it if I'm gone however.
11. Which one of you is more likely to answer the phone when it rings?
Doris definately... unless she see's it's a creditor on the caller ID. Also we each have our own rings (mine rings twice each ring) which I ask her not to answer in case it's crew schedule trying to draft me for a flight. So if it just rings once each ring it's usually for her.
12. Who's in charge of the remote if you're watching TV together?
I want to be, she wants to be. We fight for it ...-ie whomever grabs it first wins. But not for long because Doris doesn't like my choices often (House Hunters) & also I flip channels a lot, so I let her eventually control the clicker because I know she'll usually fall asleep within 30-60 minutes... Then it's mine all mine.
13. Who usually drives when you go out together?
Usually Doris! But somedays I do squire her around which she enjoys. We each get on our nerves when the other drives. ("be careful, watch out, you should have turned there.."etc.
14. Which one of you takes care of spiders and bugs that get into the house?
Doris does for sure. She smashes them. Often times when I try, I miss.
15. Facing the bed, who sleeps on which side?
Doris on the right closer to the bedroom door, I'm on the left close to the window.
16. Who usually checks the (postal) mailbox?
Luckily we have mail coming in the door slot on the livingroom floor! But Doris generally goes for it first. I personally don't want to see the bills.
17. If something breaks or goes wrong in the house, which one of you is more likely to either fix it or call someone to fix it?
Doris, thank God she has the ability! However lately she tells me she can't do anything anymore cause she's gotten too old. This has upset me, because she isn't old (72) & I don't get it - she Always used to be into so many "projects" with great zest. I loved that about her! 2 days ago I said to her "you've Never heard me say I can't do anything because I'm too old" to which she replied "because you've never done anything I did it all!" And we both laughed SO HARD because it was totally true... Tonight when I came back from my flight she had fixed the leaky toilet & rebuilt the shelves that go over it! Thank GOD - I was beginning to think I'd lost my wonderful handywoman.
18. Who is generally the neater of you?
Oh, please! DORIS, hands down.
19. Who handles the checkbook/pays the bills?
Uhm. Well. We each "handle our own checkbooks" & pay certain bills... including our own charge cards. But unfortunately this has exploded in my face as my beloved has totally fucked her end up. She has even retired 2 years ago with acute debt & won't get another job saying no one will hire a 72 yr old. I don't know what to do. I couldn't retire at 60 with my friends because of this. I am dissenchanted. I am angry. I am pissed. I am depressed. I am scared. I don't want to take a loan out against the house to pay for her debts (we are both on the mortgage.) If we can't find a bank that does 'consolidation loans' then I guess she'll have to do bankruptcy. I just keep going to work, picking up overtime like a motherfucker. I'm tired.
20. What was your last fight/disagreement about?
Her damn youngest deadbeat son. She loves him, of course.
And money. Not good.
21. When you slow dance together, who leads?
Doris. She can't follow for shit.
22. What do you love the most about your other half?
Believe it or not, we LAUGH a lot! And we tell each other "I love You" often, everyday. And have I mentioned how fucking beautiful she is? She still makes me swoon. I swear there is a LOT to be said about waking everyday to a fabulously gorgeous smiling face!
1. How long have you been together?
26 Yrs, 27 in July!
2. Who pursued who?
I totally chased her gorgeous ass all over town, 'till she caught me.
3. Do you wear any type of wedding/commitment ring? If so, which hand?
We have matching gold bands with 5 diamonds on our left marriage finger... Altho I've recently had to remove mine since I regained weight...I had made it smaller when I'd lost 50lbs... & it's too damn tight.
4. What was the hardest thing about learning to live together?
In the beginning having sex with her children in the next room..Definately cramped my style. For her the fact that I am not a neat person & she is.
5. Who takes longer to get ready in the morning?
If I put on make-up, then I do.
If I don't put on makeup then she does (D. always puts on make-up.) We're both lipstick lesbians, but Doris is an exquisitely fancy butch!
6. Do you usually eat breakfast together?
At home I have 3 hardboiled egg whites, vitamins & a smoothie... D has one hardboiled egg, vitamins & a smoothie & we usually eat this together quickly before running out the door.
But often we go out for a nice brunch at Perkins or The Scotchwood Diner.
7. Do you ever share clothes?
Yes some stuff like Tee's or Sweatshirts, but mostly we have our own clothes- Doris is 6 ft tall so her stuff is a bit bigger plus she is VERY stylish, while I no longer care so much. I can rally if I have to, but I just want comfort. I'm happy to wear a uniform so I don't have to think about it.
8. Who does most of the cooking?
DORIS!!! always.
I can not cook.
9.Who usually takes out the trash?
I do if I'm in town.
10. If you have pets who usually does litter box or poop patrol?
I do if I'm in town. Doris would rather not have animals in the house even tho' they adore her. She will do it if I'm gone however.
11. Which one of you is more likely to answer the phone when it rings?
Doris definately... unless she see's it's a creditor on the caller ID. Also we each have our own rings (mine rings twice each ring) which I ask her not to answer in case it's crew schedule trying to draft me for a flight. So if it just rings once each ring it's usually for her.
12. Who's in charge of the remote if you're watching TV together?
I want to be, she wants to be. We fight for it ...-ie whomever grabs it first wins. But not for long because Doris doesn't like my choices often (House Hunters) & also I flip channels a lot, so I let her eventually control the clicker because I know she'll usually fall asleep within 30-60 minutes... Then it's mine all mine.
13. Who usually drives when you go out together?
Usually Doris! But somedays I do squire her around which she enjoys. We each get on our nerves when the other drives. ("be careful, watch out, you should have turned there.."etc.
14. Which one of you takes care of spiders and bugs that get into the house?
Doris does for sure. She smashes them. Often times when I try, I miss.
15. Facing the bed, who sleeps on which side?
Doris on the right closer to the bedroom door, I'm on the left close to the window.
16. Who usually checks the (postal) mailbox?
Luckily we have mail coming in the door slot on the livingroom floor! But Doris generally goes for it first. I personally don't want to see the bills.
17. If something breaks or goes wrong in the house, which one of you is more likely to either fix it or call someone to fix it?
Doris, thank God she has the ability! However lately she tells me she can't do anything anymore cause she's gotten too old. This has upset me, because she isn't old (72) & I don't get it - she Always used to be into so many "projects" with great zest. I loved that about her! 2 days ago I said to her "you've Never heard me say I can't do anything because I'm too old" to which she replied "because you've never done anything I did it all!" And we both laughed SO HARD because it was totally true... Tonight when I came back from my flight she had fixed the leaky toilet & rebuilt the shelves that go over it! Thank GOD - I was beginning to think I'd lost my wonderful handywoman.
18. Who is generally the neater of you?
Oh, please! DORIS, hands down.
19. Who handles the checkbook/pays the bills?
Uhm. Well. We each "handle our own checkbooks" & pay certain bills... including our own charge cards. But unfortunately this has exploded in my face as my beloved has totally fucked her end up. She has even retired 2 years ago with acute debt & won't get another job saying no one will hire a 72 yr old. I don't know what to do. I couldn't retire at 60 with my friends because of this. I am dissenchanted. I am angry. I am pissed. I am depressed. I am scared. I don't want to take a loan out against the house to pay for her debts (we are both on the mortgage.) If we can't find a bank that does 'consolidation loans' then I guess she'll have to do bankruptcy. I just keep going to work, picking up overtime like a motherfucker. I'm tired.
20. What was your last fight/disagreement about?
Her damn youngest deadbeat son. She loves him, of course.
And money. Not good.
21. When you slow dance together, who leads?
Doris. She can't follow for shit.
22. What do you love the most about your other half?
Believe it or not, we LAUGH a lot! And we tell each other "I love You" often, everyday. And have I mentioned how fucking beautiful she is? She still makes me swoon. I swear there is a LOT to be said about waking everyday to a fabulously gorgeous smiling face!
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
Still Feel Blaa
Going back to work today, altho I'm not 100%. If we are on the sick list longer than 6 days, then it counts for 2 instances.. which is so stupid & even dumber to try to explain to lay folks who dont fly. If you get 3 instances in 1 year you are put on notice & have to go into LGA to talk to your supervisor & if you call in sick again you are fired. So I am not that well - I am exhausted, but I have to go back because I am better than I was. I was just trying to take care of myself with that chronic cough but I shall never again walk into a damn care center to get meds so I can take my trip out the next day because I wont have a Dr to depend on that understands a flight attendants plight. When I went to my own Dr. for a follow up, she really couldnt put me on a "family leave" (something we can do if we are really ill for a while that doesnt count because the dr is standing behind your sickness & it will be forgiven..) By the time I got to my own Dr I only have post nasal drip, a regular cough & ringing ears. Still not good, but she couldnt put me on a family leave because I wasnt bad enough, at least according to her. I am pissed because I still feel light shit, never-the-less I gotta go back to the job. And it really is impossible to understand for you all, so I apologize for this boring entry. snore.
I shall be flying 4 days in a row, have one day off, fly 2 days have one day off, fly 2 days have 2 days off. Then I'll fly 2 more days afterwhich I'll be on vacation for 2 weeks the end of Apr. Okay.
I shall be flying 4 days in a row, have one day off, fly 2 days have one day off, fly 2 days have 2 days off. Then I'll fly 2 more days afterwhich I'll be on vacation for 2 weeks the end of Apr. Okay.
Still Feel Blaa
Going back to work today, altho I'm not 100%. If we are on the sick list longer than 6 days, then it counts for 2 instances.. which is so stupid & even dumber to try to explain to lay folks who dont fly.
If you get 3 instances in 1 year you are put on notice & have to go into LGA to talk to your supervisor & if you call in sick again you are fired. So I am not that well - I am exhausted, but I have to go back because I am better than I was.
I was just trying to take care of myself with that chronic cough but I shall never again walk into a damn care center to get meds so I can take my trip out the next day because I wont have a Dr to depend on that understands a flight attendants plight.
When I went to my own Dr. for a follow up, she really couldnt put me on a "family leave" (something we can do if we are really ill for a while that doesnt count because the dr is standing behind your sickness & it will be forgiven..) By the time I got to my own Dr I only had post nasal drip, a regular cough & ringing ears. Still not good, but she couldnt put me on a family leave because I wasnt bad enough, at least according to her.
I am pissed because I still feel like shit, never-the-less I gotta go back to the job. And it really is impossible to understand for you all, so I apologize for this boring entry. snore.
I shall be flying 4 days in a row, have one day off, fly 2 days have one day off, fly 2 days have 2 days off. Then I'll fly 2 more days afterwhich I'll be on vacation for 2 weeks the end of Apr.
Okay.
I just gotta get thru flying 10 days in the next 2 weeks. Going into the Robot Zombie Mode in a few hours. Once I get to the hotel I can decompress & should be back to "normal"... which is so jet lagged you really don't know the difference!
Prepare to enter the Z O N E.... Speak at ya later.
This is such an odd job, no?
If you get 3 instances in 1 year you are put on notice & have to go into LGA to talk to your supervisor & if you call in sick again you are fired. So I am not that well - I am exhausted, but I have to go back because I am better than I was.
I was just trying to take care of myself with that chronic cough but I shall never again walk into a damn care center to get meds so I can take my trip out the next day because I wont have a Dr to depend on that understands a flight attendants plight.
When I went to my own Dr. for a follow up, she really couldnt put me on a "family leave" (something we can do if we are really ill for a while that doesnt count because the dr is standing behind your sickness & it will be forgiven..) By the time I got to my own Dr I only had post nasal drip, a regular cough & ringing ears. Still not good, but she couldnt put me on a family leave because I wasnt bad enough, at least according to her.
I am pissed because I still feel like shit, never-the-less I gotta go back to the job. And it really is impossible to understand for you all, so I apologize for this boring entry. snore.
I shall be flying 4 days in a row, have one day off, fly 2 days have one day off, fly 2 days have 2 days off. Then I'll fly 2 more days afterwhich I'll be on vacation for 2 weeks the end of Apr.
Okay.
I just gotta get thru flying 10 days in the next 2 weeks. Going into the Robot Zombie Mode in a few hours. Once I get to the hotel I can decompress & should be back to "normal"... which is so jet lagged you really don't know the difference!
Prepare to enter the Z O N E.... Speak at ya later.
This is such an odd job, no?
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