Saturday, June 28, 2008

I Got Nothin' Much to Say

Dang.  I can not believe how little I've written in my blog this year, when it used to be all I focused on.  I'm thinking my life just isn't that interesting, however it hasn't been bad!  Mainly, I am flying overtime as usual & resting on my few days off.. ie laying around the house & watching TV.  ha!  I am seriously tired but life goes on.

The rest of my focus is on loosing weight with WW & last time around I was so booring constantly talking about it in this online journal that I swore I wouldn't subject folks to that anymore.  Hence I started the special Elist for WW folks to write into ea day with their progress & problems & it has helped me focus.  And since it IS about loosing weight, I don't feel so self conscious talking about it all the time.  So far I am now down to 165.  Yea!  Getting there!  And I do write in that everyday.

As for turning 61- the body seems to be breaking down wierdly enough...  I had mentioned the back going out, then my neck going out 2 weeks later.  Well the latest is 2 more weeks later my damn right KNEE went out which really scared me because that is new.  I was worried it wouldn't get better, but now it seems to come & go.  I definately don't like this & I have stopped all work outs at the gym until the ole knee hopefully gets better.  Oddly enough I can't believe I am still loosing weight without all the treadmill & machine work outs.  I would still be healthier if I did exercise, tho'.

Doris & I have been doing well & have another anniversary coming up next month.  She has had the grandkids staying over on days I have flown out of town.  That has been great for me. 

Oh, & I have cut my hair again, so that is a huge difference...  First I cut it 11 inches & it was beautiful but grew fast & hung on my shoulders making me so hot for the summer.  So now I cut it 8 more inches & it is above my shoulders.  I don't like this "bob" so much & am thinking about cutting it even shorter, altho' Doris won't like it.   I am trying to figure out how to style it,  it is hard since I've had it long all my life. 

So now you see why I haven't written in a month.  Pure booring drek.  I'll write again when I have something to say.
Adios MF's!

Wednesday, June 04, 2008

A Good Day

I lost 2.6 lbs at WW today at weigh-in.  I am shocked.  My back & neck have been out so no exercise for so long.  i overate some Chinese food a week ago & had butter popcorn at Sex In the City.  I have drank 2 liters of water a day & I guess that must have really helped!  I finally broke thru 170 lbs & I'm now at 168 !  I'm actually going down.  Wow.  I am grateful.  Going to meetings & the new website I started for WW'ers in our leader Ann's group is what has helped. 

Doris & I are perfectly good today.  Wierd.  But I'm not going to complain, I am definately grateful for that too.


Intense

Doris & I had a big fight this afternoon.  Huge fight.
It was about money.
She doesn't ever seem to have much, certainly not enough to pay her part of the bills.  She says she 'pays them', but she only partially pays & so the rest is added on to the next bill & the next, etc.  It's very difficult dealing with someone like this. I really want to eat over it.  Stuff down all those negative feelings.

She claims to have paid "everything.  I paid it all" before she retired.  She did not as I always paid the mortgage & she paid the other stuff.  Anyway, I don't know how I'm supposed to pay all the rest as well as the mortgage, I just simply don't make enough money.  I can't do real estate anymore, it's not for me. 

My back went out a few weeks ago, & my neck had just gotten better from going out.  But it now has gone out again, so I can't work out at the gym.  I'm not looking fwd to weigh in at WW tomorrow. 

Doris informed me she would be moving out to a senior citizen apt building & I can just keep the damn house.  That everything was fine when she worked & had money, but now I am just driving her crazy.  Ah, yeah back at ya.

We really scream at each other now.  I'm sure the damn neighbors can hear us.  But after that, things seem to be back to normal. 

I later asked, so when do you think you'll be moving to the Sr Citizen building?  She laughed & said I ain't going anywhere babe.  But I just wonder....